I have found that, along with being these things, above, I can also be cold. I think that may come as a shock or downright untruth to some people, but it is correct. The nasty side of being so logical is that you can "logic" yourself out of (or in to) a lot of situations. For example, I believe that I am taking this breakup (see: previous post) so well because I am able to logic away my feelings. I am aware that this is unhealthy. I will, most likely, continue to do it anyway.
It is easy to be put-together when I am busy. Especially when I am responsible for 100% of the things I used to only be responsible for 60% of (notice I say 60 and not 50). It's the times I am not busy that get me. The logic creeps away and the truth seeps into its place.
Yes, it is difficult being left behind. It is difficult doing everything myself. It is difficult being alone when I thought I would be buying a house and getting married (talk about a 180). It is especially difficult being sad when my
But it is also okay.
Today it is especially okay because I hooked up my tv to my DVD player with those
I guess there's just one side of the responsibility chart now: mine. And I think I'm okay with that.
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